I just got out from the hospital at Manila Doctors yesterday afternoon. I was just expecting a quick check up and then leave. But it never starts with that. First, they examine me then I told them that I had “ULCER” and looked at them as if I was so ill. And then I told them about my stomach aches , the occasional nausea and everything that could explain the symptoms of a very sick girl.
What the doctor did was they gave me medicine ( na pinapadaan sa may veins and nilagyan ng gamot) any minute i felt so dizzy, had blurry sight and I can’t hear people talk then I felt like I was dying.
After That, I remember seeing a doctor approaching. I asked her to let me lay down on the bed, because i dont feel so good. So there it was, after feeling better since i came to the hospital, they let me go home.
The truth is, all was just some drama which was only half meant. The truth is I was just tired of going to work and since all companies had this so called “sick leave with pay” I abused it and myself. I haven’t gone to work since Monday and I pretended that I was sick.
I guess Things happen to a bad girl like me.. (Buti na lng d pa ko pina kunan ng blood sample and chest x-ray as per the slipt na binigay sa akin). I will not do it again . I hate pointy things thats why i dont want to continue my course in NURSING. I learned a lot today..
I had a great time with Sonios last night it was a blast. While they were playing STARCRAFT II and thgowing jokes, its worth it talaga sa pag punta. Kahit na minsan d ako maka relate sa mga pinag uusapan nila pero ok lng. While waiting with joyce, me and nessa fell asleep for awhile. And the boys are sooooooo adict on playing, hope i can play that game too.
It just so happen lately that my eyes gets tired easily like my eyeballs gonna come out. I don’t even understand why, siguro sa radiation ng laptop ko. Huhuhu Is this the wish I’ve been wanting for? Not to be blind but to wear glasses? It’s not so easy, no offense to those who wear glasses. Kasi parang feeling ko muka akong lola nun.. hehehe I think I need more beauty rest lng.. :D ciao
Im not yet through w/ my weekends and tonight im going to work na.
Puyatan na naman ito. Oh well, Im just amused to start blogging lng naman.The love of my life have unleashed the hidden skills i had before. And introduce me on this site to write and to express whatever i want to say.And eto na nga, It reminds me when I was in High School at Holy Family Vocational High School. I use to go to the library, borrowed books and sit on the floor after lunch. Reading William Shakespeare’s novels etc., and im not really a fan of reading books without pictures in it dati. Mas gusto ko may mga pictures and drawings. Hehehe bata kc.
Then suddenly, it just so happened na parang na encourage ako mag sulat. And started to write a poem, I forgot what it is dahil it so matagal na. And then later on hindi ko na cia na continue because of family issues. But here i am, doing it again.. And it really inspires me kc i have a supporter my PAOLO. He gives life on everything na ginagawa ko.. Im kinda negative talaga in other way, but his always there to advice and to correct me.
Anyway, pag nasa work place ako with a pen and paper on my hands. Dont know what to do with them gusto ko mag sulat ng kahit anu. All i did was nag drawing na lng ako ng leaves and flowers. Hahahaha.. Parang ewan lng e, siguro na sstress lang ako, and tonight uulanin na naman kami sa dami ng calls. Pero kahit pagod na sa work i never forget to Thank God kasi im so blessed i still have work to come everyday and at the same time they pay me.
I never thought that I would hurt you
But honesty have released me from those bars of lies
Every word from my broken and helpless heart i have confessed
You held my hand in your chest, look at each others eyes.
saying that you understand every inch of me..
Guilt have been killin me inside out over a month.
I thought that other guy can replace you.
But i just prove myself wrong, so wrong.
They can never ever be YOU..
I always Thank God for giving me you in my life.
Even though i know I stepped on other shoes and fall down,
Your the first one that would take off all the dirt and still accept me for who i am.
Promising me not to let me feel so empty again
I am dying to get back the feeling that you are the only one
Never to turn my back at you
“That i know yourself know why i did this”
No further explanation but it all happens
I use to pray and God heard them
And look at us now climbing again on the same mountain with a smile w/ those hands clasped.
I love you so much PAOLO FELIZCO
The black shadow have embraced the moment of silence in me..
Cant breath but still trying to escape on the suffocating moment of my life..
How i should know that it’s too late?
Waking up everyday like i was mourning..
But it would not be endless, oh my!
I can’t even start the beginning and end the last of my sentence.
Like i had an empty mind..
It’s never making any sense at all
Trying to adjust and paint the future inside my head
Trying to put myself in to a situation that i thought i would be better
Sometimes it’s a good idea and sometimes it’s a pain at heart and mind.